Countless Blessings

Love makes you do things you never imagined you could do.

That’s what I’ve realized just now.

I’m in the hospital this Valentine’s day, and I’m spending all my love for my Tita, who’s currently under recovery due to a major operation she had last Friday night. She is now in Colostomy, (search google for more info), and I really can’t explain how I’m feeling for the past days. My family has been very low emotionally, physically and financially but I know we’ll get through all these. I’m very inspired by the strength that my Tita is showing us, and I won’t let anything make her weak. We are all trying so hard to be positive about the situation and we’re also trying to keep things light for all of us.

The surgeon went here this morning in our room to perform the so-called Maturation of Colostomy. I was really surprised when he said, “Come here miss, you need to see how this is done.” Inside my head, I was totally freaking out. My kneed were so weak that I found it really hard to stand up. I took a really deep breath as the nurses are watching me come near them. I totally freaked out when I saw my tita’s body. Seriously. I never ever thought in my whole life that I’d see someone’s body being stitched, full of blood, and all those things I can’t even put into words. Too gross for my life!!! (Though that ‘gross’ I’m calling is the ‘gross’ that can save my tita’s life) But then I conquered it. All I thought was that, if I won’t be able to overcome my fear in this thing, I won’t be able to face more things harder than this in the future. I literally prepared myself for greater circumstances that will come my way. I love my Tita so much. I overcame my fear because it is all for her. I need to watch closely and listen to the surgeon because it is all for my Tita’s sake. If not for her, I wouldn’t even dare to look at it. I’d totally throw up easily. Everyday I’m facing things I never thought I could even do. And I think that’s what love is all about. Just like Jesus, I bet He didn’t understand why He has to give His life for all of us, but He did. Just because of this – He loves us. He loves us so much He gave His life for us. And this? This thing that just happened to me? It’s not even close to what my savior did for me and for you, this is nothing compared to what He did on the cross. So I’m conquering every “medical” fear with courage and strength that comes from above. Thank You Lord, for making me realize such things. I trust You Lord, that You will continually shower Your love towards my whole family especially to my Tita. As what You’ve said in Your word, “This too shall pass.” I trust You Lord, because by giving my Tita a chance to survive every operation that she’s been through, we are already victorious. And I know You’ll still make us all victorious every step of the way. Thank You Lord. You deserve all our love. You alone. May You continue to shower us with your blessings and love so that we can share it to all of the people around us who needs love and comfort. I love You, papa Jesus. To God be all the glory and praise on this very blessed day.

Xx,

Izelle